I wrote all of this ystd nite. Really its full of crap, but if anyone is kind enough to correct the errors i made is much appreciated. Otherwise, just read it if u really got nothin better to do. (: cheers!
It's been a really long time since I wrote proper. The senseless writing that i have penned. Utterly(does this word exist in the dic?) crap, all of it. I need to rectify a problem found in me. And that is my grammatical erroes that often appear in whatever i write. It more than often seemed that many individuals, not naming anybody in particular, have difficulty understanding what I am trying to convey. And they occasionally correct me, or I should say kindly highlight that my sentence fragmentation are wrong and honestly difficult to comprehend.
This could very well be the reason why i never could do well in my first language. Always attaining the highest being merit. For all you know, even for the other subjects, marks were lost solely because the old marker could not understand what was the economic theory that i tried hard to get across. And besides with the harsh piercing cold winter coming down hard, it will not be a wonder if these markers ever get turned off or pissed about the weather. In turn venting it onto our scripts. I ponder, really.
All the same I have no one to put the blame on, only myself to blame for this pathetic situation I am in at present. Not a single trace of being repentful, being so indifferent about the A levels than. Rather, about why have i wasted it by not learning more about the ways of life. Not literally, but enough to get me through at least.
The cold wind whistling across the dark night. I obviously can foresee the humidity after the downpour. Whatever it is, the weather is too nice to sleep through. I may just sleep till late, then it would just be another day wasted, gone unappreciated. 24 hours, 1440 minutes, 86400 seconds. Damn.
At this juncture, life is... puzzling, confusing to me, a teenager turning to an adult, yet reluctant to grow anymore. I hate changes, neophobic. Yes I am. Many people are, but in my case, its a different thing altogether. I surely never asked to grow up so fast.I'm not like other kids who wish that time will run quickly that they become an adult to do whatever they wish. I'm amused. When I was younger, like of gen's age, I never questioned the adults much. I acted twenty even though i was barely fifteen. Not in the real sense, but nonsense was never heard from my agenda.
Now, I would so much rather hang out with fourteen to seventeen year old girls than go out with my girlfriends. (No offense to all my galfrenz outta there) What a joke you'll laugh to yourself. But honestly, I know why i feel this way. The younger ones just make life full of zest and laughter. Every little thing they could laugh on it. No matter how silly. The sparkles and element of fun just litter everything we do.
I've long forgotten where all the good times went. There definitely fun times, long memories. Friends just grew out of it. Still, i linger on my own... yet I do not mind at all. I could easily play with my younger brother guns and whatever else. Most going twenty would deem childish. But i like it. Really. I do not want to lose this child in me. Sometimes between friends, there are akwardness, but.. i'm alright with it. There is just enough to have the assurance that friends will definitely be there when you need them. I too gives them the assurance. The future is hard to tell.
What really matters is every single waking moment.
Now back to the point. Why did i wrote this in the first place? To check on my grammer. Unfortunately it becomes just another avenue to start complaining about life..plain old life.
Imagine, I'm already reaching the twenties, with all these years of education I have been through, my english remains just as bad as a primary kid. And my vocabulary of words as well as spelling remains equally bad. What else I'm I to say? Nothin really. It may probably put off the reader, if anyone is even interested, even before reaching the second sentence. Period.
Note to all: all this are really random ya.. so absorb it on a lighter note. and btw i wrote all of this like in the wee hours of dawn. so.. *smile*
